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".../Are you fucking kidding me?/" His tone became dark, and his hand became a fist. "What did he say this time?!"

2015-11-06 05:01:55

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I flinched away from him, tears pricking my eyes. I opened my mouth, then closed it again. I don't want to tell him about that. "......h-he...called her a San....Sandy.....Sanguisuga?"

2015-11-06 05:03:13

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"...Seculus?"

2015-11-06 05:03:47

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"Wh-wh-what?" Was he angry at me? Was it my fault she'd been called that? ....was that why she hated me?

2015-11-06 05:04:40

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"/Watch. Ivory./ And I mean /really/ watch her, I'm going to find him." He knew how that term hurt her. Haybien knew that just to make her upset. Haybien needed to pay, but the last thing Ivory needed to be alone. Especially in this state. He didn't trust her when she was like this. In all honesty? A part of him really thought she was going to try to kill herself again.

2015-11-06 05:08:21

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"....but she....won't let me near her." What? /What/? No. Oh God, please no. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, /please/, don't do that....

2015-11-06 05:09:24

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"For once, don't listen to her." He moved out from behind the counter, and headed out of the door.

2015-11-06 05:10:03

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After he left, Ren looked at the door, then at me. And then, to my surprise, they moved aside to let me follow Ivory. I...I don't know if I want to. Of course you do, you're just too much of a coward. SHUT UP! THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT! ALL OF IT! So you want her to kill herself, then? NO! /No/, I..............

.................I climbed the stairs to her room slowly and looked down before I entered.

2015-11-06 05:22:09

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Ivory paid no attention to anyone when she went to her room. Her jacket laid on the floor, and she curled up at the end of her bed. Her hands gripped her hair as she trembled, and tears streamed down her face.

2015-11-06 05:28:07

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I took a step forward, then another, hand slightly outstretched. What do I do? Will she tell me to go away again?

2015-11-06 05:29:30

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She didn't move. She didn't say or do anything. She just cried. That's all she really could do.

2015-11-06 05:33:37

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I approached her and hesitantly put my hand on her back.

2015-11-06 05:34:16

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She froze. The scent of his blood filled the air around her. He hurt himself. And it was her fault. All her fault.

2015-11-06 05:36:27

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She could -- she could smell it. .....I'm sorry........ "......it's not......" I sat down on the bed and wrapped my arms around her gently.

2015-11-06 05:38:11

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Her hands moved from her hair to her face. Don't look at her like this. She's terrible. "It's my fault. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything. You deserve better. I'm the worst."

2015-11-06 05:41:13

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".......no........you're not........it's not your fault.............I don't deserve /anything/, yet here you are............"

2015-11-06 05:42:10

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"Can't you see it yet? He's right. My soul is weak. My soul can't even protect itself. Everything he said was true."

2015-11-06 05:43:54

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"...it's not weak, it's...../special/....perfect and unique........you're not a parasite...."

2015-11-06 05:44:48

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"But it is! No one has voices who wish death upon the other. No one has voices who spent more time hurting each other than doing their job. I'm /weak./ Everything about me is /weak./ It's why I can go to the foggy place. It's why I can see dead people. He wasn't lying. He wasn't exaggerating. Every bit of it was true."

2015-11-06 05:48:38

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"......you're stronger than any of us, Ivory......you've been able to deal with all of that....you're special...."....please, please believe me......

2015-11-06 05:49:54

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"I'm only special because I can't even protect myself properly."

2015-11-06 05:51:32

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"....you can protect yourself just /fine/. Clarenz can't protect himself, and you're nothing alike."

2015-11-06 06:03:21

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"If I could protect myself Beckett wouldn't have possessed me."

2015-11-06 06:04:56

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"You protect yourself and everyone else too, you can protect yourself....."

2015-11-06 06:08:54

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"But I'm hurting you. I'm hurting everyone around us."

2015-11-06 06:09:52